Searching...

So this last month or so has just been hectic. I've started looking for a JOB... No I'm not EXCITED about it but I'm excited about the possiblities. (and the money in our pockets) My husband and his entire family don't want me to start working for the sole reason that I'd have to put Bear in daycare. I dont like the thought of someone else "raising" my child - but I also don't like the idea that I am the only person in the world he deals with on a daily basis. I've thought of all the pros and cons - and it seems like my pro list is overflowing. Bear (who just turned 1) is attached to my hip- while I LOVE this - it also has its set backs. He's even getting to the point that he doesn't like to stay @ his grandparents... and my husband can't even get him to bed @ night, I usually have to do it. I don't want to take him to his first day of Kindergarten and be the mother with the screaming child stuck to her leg. I LOVED staying home with Jacob, and I wouldn't take the last year back for anything. But I think being here 24/7 is stressing me out. Which may sound stupid to you working mothers. But spending the entire day chasing dirty diapers and snotty noses, picking up a 6yr old from school who just complains till you wanna pull your ears off, and cleaning a dirty house that never stays clean is not that satisfying. Not to mention not having a TON left over @ the end of bills to be able to DO anything. I literally see the inside of this house 90% of the day. Granted, I go "window" shopping and run errands. But how fun is shopping to find stuff you want and love - knowing you can't really get it??

I love my family, and God has truly blessed me. There are sometimes I just don't understand HOW we got to do the things we do, have the things we have and I know that its only because the Lord watches over us. He provides for us. We are firm believers in tithe! and he never lets us down.

Needless to say - I HAVE AN INTERVIEW TOMORROW! I am very interested in it and I'm super excited. A little nervous, which will turn into ALOT nervous before long.... We'll see! <3

Done and DONE!

I've been SOoOoOo OVER doing it the last couple weeks. My son's 1st birthday was Nov. 10th we had his party this weekend. Who would have known it'd be this stressfull? ESPECIALLY CONSIDERING he's ONLY 1! haha But I was TOO excited and wanted everything to be perfect. I haven't been writing much because I've been SO busy! :P It was great though! We all had a ton of fun! and the CAKE was AMAZING! I did the theme in Moose and Zee (from Nick Jr.) and because they aren't an ACTUAL Cartoon there is NOTHING with their theme on it! So I had a cake made, and I fell IN LOVE! It was AMAZINGLY Cute first off... and the cake was super yummy. I'm a picky person - and she did EVERYTHING right! :) http://www.wedesigncakes.com/ Selina.

It was perfect. :) We had a blast and I slept SO well last night! lol I was exhausted to say the least. I spent a week super cleaning the house haha Even places NO one would see! Guess it could use it anyway! :) I can't believe how FAST my little man has grown up. He just started walking and today he started clapping! Which absolutely melts my heart! :) Now I have to figure out how to get him off formula and bottles. THIS could be fun! :P

Anyways I should post more now that the stress is gone haha although the HOLIDAYS ARE COMING! Where did the year go!?! Really...?