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Life's Curveballs

Well things have changed dramatically since the last time I've posted. WOW I've been BAD! :P I started a small part time job @ a fitness center in the daycare area. Pay is horrible, other people's kids need spankings, and I took mostly night shifts! But @ the end of the day... it helps. I make minimum wage to sit and watch a ton of kids in a tiny room (while MY children are with me!). Its not TOO bad, but I've suddenly realized how well behaved my children are and how non-disciplined other children are. GAH! I've also realized that I am WAY more patient than I gave myself credit for. lol Its an okay job for now. I've had a couple interviews but with a 14mo old and 6yr old... Daycare for them (afterschool for my oldest) would basically wipe out any check that I got. I'd work 40hrs a week and bring home 200-400$ a month and lose the time with my kiddos. No Thanks. On the bad note... since I've started the job, Bear and I have been SICK! He caught RSV, which the Lord blessed us in him not getting it too bad and got rid of it quickly. Then I CAUGHT IT - well the Adult version, which in return led to a sinus infection that I'm still fighting! :( SO I don't even know if I'm making enough, considering doctor copays have been 50$ each time.

Bear is 14mo old! Which is just a total shocker for me! Running everywhere, attitude like no other, sweet<3 and he's a TOTAL FLIRT like his daddy. :) Bray is in school and top of his class... very smart! Addicted to the Wii/DS but we're nipping that in the butt. He's so smart its ridiculous! :)

I have a wonderful life! Even if I complain sometimes. My husband is my ROCK! He's the greatest! SO hilariously funny and gorgeous! :) God has BLESSED me! <3

But for now, I have a screaming Bear... <3

Searching...

So this last month or so has just been hectic. I've started looking for a JOB... No I'm not EXCITED about it but I'm excited about the possiblities. (and the money in our pockets) My husband and his entire family don't want me to start working for the sole reason that I'd have to put Bear in daycare. I dont like the thought of someone else "raising" my child - but I also don't like the idea that I am the only person in the world he deals with on a daily basis. I've thought of all the pros and cons - and it seems like my pro list is overflowing. Bear (who just turned 1) is attached to my hip- while I LOVE this - it also has its set backs. He's even getting to the point that he doesn't like to stay @ his grandparents... and my husband can't even get him to bed @ night, I usually have to do it. I don't want to take him to his first day of Kindergarten and be the mother with the screaming child stuck to her leg. I LOVED staying home with Jacob, and I wouldn't take the last year back for anything. But I think being here 24/7 is stressing me out. Which may sound stupid to you working mothers. But spending the entire day chasing dirty diapers and snotty noses, picking up a 6yr old from school who just complains till you wanna pull your ears off, and cleaning a dirty house that never stays clean is not that satisfying. Not to mention not having a TON left over @ the end of bills to be able to DO anything. I literally see the inside of this house 90% of the day. Granted, I go "window" shopping and run errands. But how fun is shopping to find stuff you want and love - knowing you can't really get it??

I love my family, and God has truly blessed me. There are sometimes I just don't understand HOW we got to do the things we do, have the things we have and I know that its only because the Lord watches over us. He provides for us. We are firm believers in tithe! and he never lets us down.

Needless to say - I HAVE AN INTERVIEW TOMORROW! I am very interested in it and I'm super excited. A little nervous, which will turn into ALOT nervous before long.... We'll see! <3

Done and DONE!

I've been SOoOoOo OVER doing it the last couple weeks. My son's 1st birthday was Nov. 10th we had his party this weekend. Who would have known it'd be this stressfull? ESPECIALLY CONSIDERING he's ONLY 1! haha But I was TOO excited and wanted everything to be perfect. I haven't been writing much because I've been SO busy! :P It was great though! We all had a ton of fun! and the CAKE was AMAZING! I did the theme in Moose and Zee (from Nick Jr.) and because they aren't an ACTUAL Cartoon there is NOTHING with their theme on it! So I had a cake made, and I fell IN LOVE! It was AMAZINGLY Cute first off... and the cake was super yummy. I'm a picky person - and she did EVERYTHING right! :) http://www.wedesigncakes.com/ Selina.

It was perfect. :) We had a blast and I slept SO well last night! lol I was exhausted to say the least. I spent a week super cleaning the house haha Even places NO one would see! Guess it could use it anyway! :) I can't believe how FAST my little man has grown up. He just started walking and today he started clapping! Which absolutely melts my heart! :) Now I have to figure out how to get him off formula and bottles. THIS could be fun! :P

Anyways I should post more now that the stress is gone haha although the HOLIDAYS ARE COMING! Where did the year go!?! Really...?

Can I go back to being a kid??

When life gives you lemons, make lemonade....

Yeah - but lemonade needs sugar, water, a pitcher and to be stirred - it takes practice to make the perfect lemonade or its all tart or over watered!!! ugh...

Things have been round in the Haddad household. I know that God is watching over us and giving me nothing more then I can handle but sometimes I just want to scream. I'm sorry I havent been blogging... Its be a mess of things lately.

My youngest - Bear ;) He has started this twitching thing. He just twitches out of no where and sometimes throws up afterwards (during) and SCREAMS like he was electrocuted. I noticed it last week and we spent ALLLLL night Friday in the hospital. Just to get told "We dont know what it is... see your doctor Monday..." Okay. REALLY? First off I drove 45min away from my house which took almost 2 hours due to horrible traffic *saw 5 wrecks on the way*, and spent 4 hours waiting in a waiting room and having my son get stuck by a needle 4 times to draw 4ccs of blood just to get tested for dehydration, which resulted to a huge bruise on his arm b/c the phlebotomist on hand couldn't do his job the first time. I had to hold my poor Bear down while he SCREAMED and tears streamed down his cheeks - ALLLLLL for you to tell me to see my doctor on Monday?!?! Did I read your name tag right, or is that NOT a Dr. infront of your name!? Not to mention - I just spent LOADS of money to be in an over priced CHILDRENS Emergency Room for you to tell me that apparently I'm in the wrong place. Do you know how hard it is to entertain an 11mo old in a room the size of our CLOSET for 4 hours with NO toys, NO food, and the TV's all programmed to the Rangers Game because somehow we made it to the World Series!?? OHHH... And my 6yr old who spent the night in the Cafeteria with my in-laws! I was so irritated, upset, and EXHAUSTED by the time that we left I almost vowed to never go there again.

So... NOW after our appt on Monday, we have a MRI scheduled this Friday (which he has to FAST for) and an EEG on Nov. 8th to be checked for seizures. Then we go from there... And that was the soonest we could get into anywhere. :(

I'm still upset, although Bear has been better. He's fine, I know he is. I'm praying every minute. But I wanted SOMETHING done... SOME test! Not just an "I'm Sorry, wait till its worse" face. ughh...

Onto Better NEWS! Bear's FIRST Birthday is Nov. 10th! I'm sooooo overly excited. I just can't wait! :) I'm going to do the theme in Moose and Zee. :) I LOVEEE IT!

My oldest, Bray, is in Boy Scouts and he's doing well. I think he likes it! It's something other then the Wii, Thank God.

ANYHOW... Just keep praying for us. <3 I'm looking for a Job as well... SO I'm praying God leads me to where he WANTS me :)

Calling all Chef Moms

Gosh, I'm tired. :P I was having trouble dragging myself up and out of bed. But duty calls... *and his name is Jacob* He was hungry and not in the mood to wait on Mama. He's the pickiest little thing. He doesn't like baby food (except Sweet Potatoes and Earth's Best Pumpkin Apple), he never would take the oatmeals or rice cereals (although we thought they were a big part of his reflux so we never really persued it). He still drinks his formula and wants it in a bottle. I've been trying with the sippy cup but he usually just throws it down. The only thing "easy" that I've found that he likes is hot dog weenies and refried beans! lol (Not TOGETHER!) He'll munch on our food sometimes, but not enough to fill him up. And his FAVORITE restaurant is Jason's Deli. I think because we give him all SORTS of things and he gets the ice cream cone minus the ice cream @ the end! I've been looking for some easy baby friendly recipes but nothing sounds healthy yet good! HELP A MAMA OUT! <3 I'd love to hear what you guys feed your finicky little eaters! He only has his 4 front teeth so he can't chew on a steak either ;) Many thanks in advance! <3

Lucky You... :)

My husband is home! *Yayyy* -you may not hear it but there is sarcasm in my voice! I love my husband… He is the greatest. BUT, there are these days that he wants “man time”… I understand I used to have “girl time” but I don’t even know what that’s like anymore. Anyhow – Joshua gets together (@ our house) with a couple of his male-buddies and they play poker. I guess to feel like they are doing manly stuff. Usually the TV is on SOME football game and they take up my dining room table. I ON THE OTHERHAND get to spend the remainder of the night trying to entertain 2 boys whom want to see their daddy who is in the other room playing poker. As fun as my evening sounds, it sucks. Mostly because you can’t explain to an 11mo old that Daddy needs man time. I would LOVE some me time, but my “Me-Time” almost ALWAYS involves a small slobbery child.

SO YOU GET TWO WHOLE BLOGS TODAY from yours truly. *Note the Title J* I think there should be some sort of LAW that states any Stay @ Home Mom *or hell… any mom period!* should get at least 2 days a month OFF to do whatever she wants and however long she wants it ALONE *or with a selected friend*! (AND it should be FREE) haha… Yeah, in a perfect world where your grass only grows the perfect length and dinner cooks itself.

Speaking of dinner, I made a quick dinner tonight that came out really good! J I was proud of myself… I took the Campbell’s Chicken Enchilada recipe and changed it up a bit. For the “sauce” on top I used a milky rotel/velveeta mix, and I left out a couple other ingredients. I was super proud considering EVEN THE 6YR OLD said it was good! Mission Accomplished! Here’s the recipe… Hope it works for you too!

½ can Campbell's® Condensed Cream of Chicken Soup  (Regular or 98% Fat Free)

2 tbs cup sour cream

½ Block of Velveeta®

1 can Rotel®  (Mild Diced)

2 teaspoons chili powder

3 shredded cooked chicken *I boiled mine before hand*

1/2 cup shredded Monterey Jack cheese

8 Corn Tortillas *or flour* warmed

1 small tomato, chopped (about 1/2 cup) optional

1 green onion, sliced (about 2 tablespoons) optional

1. ·         Heat the oven to 350°F. Stir the soup, sour cream,  ¼ can of Rotel® and chili powder in a Sauté Pan. Heat.
2. ·         Mix in Chicken when soup mixture is heated and sauté.
3. ·         Divide the chicken mixture among the tortillas. Roll up the tortillas and place seam-side down in a 2-quart shallow baking dish.
4. ·         Melt rest of Rotel® and ½ of Velveeta® block *cubed* in microwave and pour over pan of enchiladas. Sprinkle cheese sparingly over enchiladas and place in oven.
5. ·         Bake for 10 minutes or until all cheese is melted. Top with the tomato and onion.